The first closet may be the scariest and most difficult to come out of, but it's not the only closet you'll ever have to exit. It doesn't matter if you were deep in the closet finding x-mas presents, or gasping the knob for years...there is still a second (and maybe even third closet).
People may know your out, you may speak about being out, but your only out of the first closet. Though the general public may know your out ; you still keep our orientation deep inside around family members.You refrain from making any comments about the same sex, and are careful about what impression you give.
This is what I call the second closet. Exiting the second closet is easier then you think. You can start by making minor comments, and having small talk about your sexuality. Hell before I knew it my mom and I became comfortable with speaking about my ex girl friends. She even one night approached me with a bunch of questions about my orientation.
Talk to people , because more and more you'll find if your open, people will be interested. Your voice will be heard, and most likely you'll be accepted. Not for being gay/bi-sexual/etc , but for being yourself. After coming out of the second closet don't be discouraged if you have trouble with the third.
The third one is so minor yet in your life it can be major. I myself will admit to suffering from the third closet scare. This is when you hide the most minor things even though your "completely" out. You hide your text messages, e-mails, Google searches. The smallest things that don't affect any one's life , but yours.
The funny thing is , it's all in your head. Right now I am blogging in at my dad's job, and even I got shakey about it. One of my co-workers leaned over to see what I was doing and I switched to my other tab. Last night I thought of closing my door while looking at "Pride" websites.
I realized I didn't need to, all 3 my family members know I'm bi. I wear rainbow outfits occasionally, and talk about it.
Right now I'm blogging at my dad's job in an office. The door is open, and people are walking around me...but I'm not ashamed. Let them see if they wish.
I'm blogging about my sexual orientation in public.
I'm reaching out of my third closet. Because I am proud of my orientation, and all of what comes with it.
I'm stepping my first foot out, and feeling the fresh air.
-Jay Em Cee
I envy you for using your blog as an extension of your pride, my blog is a testament to how in the closet I really am. Apart from anyone who reads it only the few males Ive been with and my bestfriend no one knows I'm not straight. Stumbling onto this blogpost gives m just a little more couragr
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